It’s been just over a year since the last post and even longer since I had anything worthy to write about. I’ve spent about a year and a half floating around ideas looking for the right one to pull the trigger on. I’m about five projects past where THE VOID left off and each one I thought was “the one” but none were. They each had their own problems like not being high-concept enough, or being something you’d see on cable tv (for free), or something you would’ve seen 10 years ago.
It’s easy to get excited about ideas and I suppose I should be happy because at least I have some ideas. For a long time, I didn’t and that was worse. But even ideas aren’t much when you don’t know which idea is “the one“. When I say that, I don’t mean “the one” as in “the next big script that’s going to make me a million dollars“. I just mean “the one worth spending the next 4-6 months writing“.
I spent so much time working through VOID in my head before I ever sat down to hammer it out. Literally 75% of the work on VOID was mental and the rest was implementing on paper. I think that’s a gift from my “real” job as a software architect. I can think through things many levels deep and pop back up and think about more and how it all interacts. But it’s also a curse, because it preempts me from actually sitting down and sweating out pages.
All that mental work is costly. It may not be equivalent to wearing out muscles but I think it wears out your muse. I found it really hard to get excited about the projects since VOID. Just passing moments of excitement but nothing lasting. I was gun shy for a year.
Now I think I finally found the gun, and I’m ready to pull the trigger. I’m not totally excited about it yet, but sometimes you just have to write what the market wants, not what you’re the most passionate about, I guess. Right?
I’m also attempting to shift the ratio of mental-to-physical work from 75/25 to 50/50 or better. I need to start hammering out pages especially if I want to get this out by September. I’m just waiting and hoping my tired muse wakes up.
There’s probably no end to the excuses one could come up with for not writing, so I’m done. Let’s go, game on.
Lock and load, bitch.